My jaw locked shut today for a couple of hours, the muscles in my left side now ache so much. I guess there is no avoiding that my bone disease is destroying what is left of my TMJ. I am seeing the senior surgeon in June, I do not want the operation again and was hoping things could be put off for a while, but it is looking like I am going to need it sooner rather than later. I am scared they are going to say I need the whole joint replaced, which will be even more of a major operation. After the first operation I was left with damaged muscles on the left side of my face which affected the closing of my left eye, it took a lot of physio to get that back, what happens if that happens again?
June is going to be one heck of a busy month, I am being discharged form the CMHT, moving flat, my sisters birthday and seeing the surgeon to find out what the plan is.
What ever is going to happen surgery wise I know that in the mean time they will make me a splint for my jaw, I have had three different ones over the last few years, they are horrible, very painful, and gross. I threw them all away as I was so sure that things were never going to go backwards with my jaw, very ignorant of me.
The fun begins.
For those of you that haven't seen them I have included the lovely photos from my last operation, at least I have a good photo collection from all of this!
i'm so sorry that all this is happening to you, you don't deserve it at all.
ReplyDeleteAre they seriously just going to stop your treatment ? I can't get over how horrible that is. You're not a lost cause, you can get better, it just takes time.
I hope they change their mind, I really do,
xoxo
major major stuff here Ams.I can gather that you're quite apprehensive about June but remember that regardless of appointments/ill health of humor,things aren't all gonna crash on you.Trust in the flow of life(easier said than done!!!!).
ReplyDeletePictures are so graphic!!You surely have some hell of a photo collection.I'm shocked and impressed!No wya am I belittling the TMJ..Is that the actual problem?Or isn't a generalized bone problem?You've been through significant trauma before and though it seems to be overwhelming please realize that you a survivor.You are a survivor of ED,of mental pain,of physical pain and you've dealt with things better than I think you know.I'm very impressed by you girl.Hopefully I can see you through the next few months?I know I'm a it useless at the best of times but I'm not going anywhere anyway,that's all :)