Tired of trying so hard

I feel so low, I am really struggling. I have tried so hard to keep everything together, but I can't. I physically don't no what to do any more.

A friend came around earlier to pick something up and I burst into tears on three occasions. I felt so pathetic, why am I crying?

I am still angry at myself after yesterdays binge, so have stuck to 136 calories. At least that is one thing I can control.

I really wish someone could rescue me, please somebody, save me.